mcrluvr4evr's Journals on Buzznet

HAPPY IMCRD!

mcrluvr4evr — 2009-07-23T20:35:00Z

Hello. I just wanted to type a quick post saying Happy International My Chemical Romance Day! This band has done so much for so many people i cant describe it all. There is just simply not enough room. So i am just going to take this time to say a trillon Thank Yous to MCR(Gerard, Frank, Mikey, Bob and Ray) and the MCRmy for everything! They have helped me in ways i can never describe with words. This day isnt only for MCR but for the MCRmy because it brings us all together to celebrate the best band ever! And i am truely gratfull for that. Thanks!

ps. Sorry for my poor spelling.

Help?

mcrluvr4evr — 2009-04-19T19:49:00Z

I'm trying to think of a cool design that has to do with MCR and how much i love them that i can draw on my ankle....any ideas? If you can draw and have a great idea, please let me know! You can send a picture or describe it or whatever. thanks so much!

Prayers for Bobby-A movie

mcrluvr4evr — 2009-01-29T13:04:00Z

I just watched Prayers for Bobby. I dont know if you have heard of this movie, but if you are excepting and love people that are homosexual and/or have friends that are like that this movie is for you. It's an excellent movie that is based on a true story. In a very religious family, a mom finds out that her son is gay. Something tradgic happens to her son Bobby and his mom questions her faith. Through the story she struggles to accept her son. It's an AMAZING story and i highly suggest you watch it. If you do or are going to let me know or leave me comments and we can talk. Note: It will most likely make you cry, so bring klenex and watch it at an appropiate time. You can watch it online. Here is the website:

http://www.mylifetime.com/on-tv/full-movies/prayers-for-bobby-coming-this-wed/video/6622754001

concert!

mcrluvr4evr — 2009-01-25T18:24:00Z

so on saturday i went to a local concert with a friend! it was better than fantastic! It was White Tie Affair, Rookie of the Year, The Chain Gang of 1974, and another band that wasnt to my liking. If you have never heard of these bands i suggest you look them up because they are amazing! i got a pic with someone in Rookie of the Year, and another pic with the lead singer of White Tie Affair (Chris), who is incredably hott mind you. And has the best rock star personally i have gotten the change to meet. but it was just an unforgettable night as all my concert outtings are, just breathtaking. anyway, so look up the bands they are great!! ummm, i could continue but ive got to go. so if you have questions let me know!

Sleep Soundly Sweet

mcrluvr4evr — 2008-12-08T20:45:03Z

So, i wrote this poem for my bf for the holidays...its a little choppy...but what do you think?...questions?...comments?...critisism(sp)?

I miss you already,

But you are not even gone.

My heart aches for you

When I listen to this song

While it plays the melody

I think of only you and me

And everything we will be

I'm new at this

It's all so difficult to see

I'll always ponder...

Why did you pick me?

You say I'm beautiful

Look in the mirror

and What do I see?

The person staring back

Can't be the same one you see.

And in the beat of my heart

I fell in love with you

Then when I hit the ground

The air rushed out of my lungs

It was all so fast, I thought I died.

But then you came back and saved my life

And I miss the way your lips,

They touch mine and dive for a kiss

The tingle travels up my spine

Unspoken words, heart then mind

And I miss the way you smell

I wanna draw you close

Just to get a small dose

Paralyzed, Am I breathing? (Remember to breath, breath)

And I long for that impressive smile

Please say it will stay a while

When I see it, it sparks a fire inside

It stings and it burns (burns)

And I long for your hand and a hug

Keep me safe; keep me snug (always, always)

They are so strong, softly they fit against mine

Then when you leave, I'm lonely, Lifeless

My ears are tuned to the sound of your voice

And it's all I've been waiting for, nothing more.

It makes my heart melt and my smile begin to glow

I close my eyes and you're here

And finally, you have arrived

I feel so full, I feel so alive

I'm drifting and floating on cloud number nine

A fantasy of my own design

Note to self, you will be back someday

With you, you carry the sunshine and the rain

And everything will begin all over again

So for now, forever you'll be in my dreams.

And through all the nights

You will be my lullaby

To help me fall asleep

Sleep now, Sleep soundly

Sleep soundly my sweet

So close your eyes for now

And soon we'll be together

Forever, Forever

Sleep Soundly Sweet

mcrluvr4evr — 2008-12-03T21:01:00Z

So, i wrote this poem for my bf for the holidays...its a little choppy...but what do you think?...questions?...comments?...critisism(sp)?

I miss you already,

But you are not even gone.

My heart aches for you

When I listen to this song

While it plays the melody

I think of only you and me

And everything we will be

I'm new at this

It's all so difficult to see

I'll always ponder...

Why did you pick me?

You say I'm beautiful

Look in the mirror

and What do I see?

The person staring back

Can't be the same one you see.

And in the beat of my heart

I fell in love with you

Then when I hit the ground

The air rushed out of my lungs

It was all so fast, I thought I died.

But then you came back and saved my life

And I miss the way your lips,

They touch mine and dive for a kiss

The tingle travels up my spine

Unspoken words, heart then mind

And I miss the way you smell

I wanna draw you close

Just to get a small dose

Paralyzed, Am I breathing? (Remember to breath, breath)

And I long for that impressive smile

Please say it will stay a while

When I see it, it sparks a fire inside

It stings and it burns (burns)

And I long for your hand and a hug

Keep me safe; keep me snug (always, always)

They are so strong, softly they fit against mine

Then when you leave, I'm lonely, Lifeless

My ears are tuned to the sound of your voice

And it's all I've been waiting for, nothing more.

It makes my heart melt and my smile begin to glow

I close my eyes and you're here

And finally, you have arrived

I feel so full, I feel so alive

I'm drifting and floating on cloud number nine

A fantasy of my own design

Note to self, you will be back someday

With you, you carry the sunshine and the rain

And everything will begin all over again

So for now, forever you'll be in my dreams.

And through all the nights

You will be my lullaby

To help me fall asleep

Sleep now, Sleep soundly

Sleep soundly my sweet

So close your eyes for now

And soon we'll be together

Forever, Forever

My Mask

mcrluvr4evr — 2008-07-01T16:01:00Z

I know it's kinda late to be describing my mask, but im going to anyway. So for my mask i decided to review the songs on The Black Parade, and incorperate them into my mask. The drawings on my mask resemble something from each of the songs, the band in general, the fans, or a song or two combined into one. Starting at the left hand corner of the mask there are stars. The stars represent the stage behavoir of MCR. I have always thought of it as fun, energy, and hope (that also reminds me of the song Dead! and Famous Last Words). On the other side of the head (the right) there is a cross. It is for the hospital and patient as well as the nurses in WTTBP. Moving down above the right eye i put MCRMY for the fans, and associated that with the song Teenagers and Disenchanted because Teenagers describes some of the fans, and it also reminds me of the line: " It was the roar of the crowd, That gave me heartache to sing." in the song Disenchanted. Around the eyes i decided to put make-up (eyeliner) for the song The End. The ears each have something in them. One eye is open, and one eye is closed. The open eye is so that it can be aware of things and its partaily alive, and because of the song Sleep and how Gerard could not sleep in the creepy house. The eye is crying because of the song Cancer. It is so beautiful and close that it makes me and many people cry. He is crying tears of blood because of the last song, Blood. The closed eye is also for the song Sleep, like he is having trouble getting to sleep. It also resembles fear, the fear that if he closes his eyes, then he will see horrible things. "...Sometimes I see flames. And sometimes, I see people that I love dying and... it's always..." The left has the T from the video Teenagers. The right ear has music in it for the song This is How I Disappear. The mouth has vampire teeth for The Sharpest Lives, pertaining to the line: " In love with all of these vampires." I also thought it kinda brought back memories of the old times...when people thought they were rich vampires...=)...lol. The mouth is also kinda smiling because most people know what the albulm was about...."The message and theme of our album "The Black Parade" is hope and courage. Our lyrics are about finding the strength to keep living through pain and hard times." As said by the band on thier website. So i would like to think that the smile is a small symbol of hope. The heart on the right cheek is a symbol of love, obviously for not only the band and other fans but also for the song I Don't Love You. The skeletal looking nose is for the songs Dead! (of course) and Welcome to the Black Parade. It reminds me of when Gee was talking about how the song WTTBP is about the patient and what happens to him when he dies. Located at the bottom of the mask, there are flames. The flames for me represent the hardships that everyone goes through, and House of Wolves because they talk about burning in hell, running like the devil, and being bad, and all of those things reminds me of fire. The fire also reminds me of the song Mama because of some of the lyrics (i think you know what im talking about...=) Last but not least, the rose, on the left side of the mask, on the cheek. The rose symbolizes a number of things for me, as well as probibly for other fans as well. The rose is symbolic of death, love, respect, courage, and hope. It is also for the old song Helena. (ya, i know it does not all pertain to TBP, but i thought that that song was very important) Finally, (sry this was so long) my mask is extemely symbolic of the Black Parade and what the albulm is all about...hope, and strength. Its a mask for me, MCR, and all of the other wonderful fans!

Thanks for reading!

mcrluvr4evr xoxo

Beware; This is Nothing but a Nightmare

mcrluvr4evr — 2008-06-04T17:22:24Z

Another poem/song thing...kinda long again...lol..leave comments if you wish...ty

Beware; This is Nothing but a Nightmare

mcrluvr4evr — 2008-06-04T17:16:00Z

A poem by me...its kinda long..asks a lot of questions...leave comments if you like...ty

Behind these faces, hidden signs of hurt
I dig deep beneath the mask, bleeding wounds
Tending to them, I do the best I can
It’s not enough, blood slowly run down
Cooked and red. Listen; sleeping screams
I feel hopeless, there is nothing I can do

I was blinded by my dream reality
Why couldn’t I notice, what couldn’t I see?
These people were hurting right in front of me
It took an alarm to awaken me

This is no dream
But a nightmare
I’m not prepared
Beware, Beware

I can not fight what I don’t understand
I can’t stop what I hadn’t planned
It terrifies me, to see you this way
To watch you slowly dismantle, see you decay

Do you know you cause me pain?
When I see those hidden scars?
I want to plug my ears, scream as you explain
Say wait, wait red light
What some people do to you, I try to stop the fight
For what people do to you, I know this is isn’t right

Back to this scary place, my eyes black again
Throw away the key, it is here I remain
Do you ask yourself why it happened to you?
And why you have to go through the things that you do?

What is this world coming to?
And sense when did our lives go askew?
Who decided who’s boss of whom?
Why can’t you just be you?

This is no dream
But a nightmare
I’m not prepared
Beware, Beware

I think I might go insane
There’s no way to stop the bleeding in my brain
I’m on life support
And so are you

Balancing your life on the line
Growing unsteady, think you’re out of your mind
There’s something more to hope for
Don’t go through that door

I wanna make this icy clear
If you need me, I’ll always be near
Although there is only so much that I can do
In the end it’s all up to you

This is no dream
But a nightmare
I’m not prepared
Beware, Beware

Behind these faces, hidden signs of hurt
I dig deep beneath the mask, bleeding wounds
Tending to them, I do the best I can
It’s not enough, blood slowly run down
Cooked and red. Listen; sleeping screams
I feel hopeless, there is nothing I can do

I was blinded by my dream reality
Why couldn’t I notice, what couldn’t I see?
These people were hurting right in front of me
It took an alarm to awaken me

This is no dream
But a nightmare
I’m not prepared
Beware, Beware

I can not fight what I don’t understand
I can’t stop what I hadn’t planned
It terrifies me, to see you this way
To watch you slowly dismantle, see you decay

Do you know you cause me pain?
When I see those hidden scars?
I want to plug my ears, scream as you explain
Say wait, wait red light
What some people do to you, I try to stop the fight
For what people do to you, I know this is isn’t right

Back to this scary place, my eyes black again
Throw away the key, it is here I remain
Do you ask yourself why it happened to you?
And why you have to go through the things that you do?

What is this world coming to?
And sense when did our lives go askew?
Who decided who’s boss of whom?
Why can’t you just be you?

This is no dream
But a nightmare
I’m not prepared
Beware, Beware

I think I might go insane
There’s no way to stop the bleeding in my brain
I’m on life support
And so are you

Balancing your life on the line
Growing unsteady, think you’re out of your mind
There’s something more to hope for
Don’t go through that door

I wanna make this icy clear
If you need me, I’ll always be near
Although there is only so much that I can do
In the end it’s all up to you

This is no dream
But a nightmare
I’m not prepared
Beware, Beware

What If...?

mcrluvr4evr — 2008-06-03T15:47:52Z

If you were to die today

What would you say?

Would you call everyone you knew?

Just to say goodbye

Would that make things worse?

When you hear them cry?

What would you do with the time you have?

What would be the hardest part?

Maybe leaving the loved ones behind

Scary thoughts in the back of your mind

All the things that you're gonna miss

That special someone you never got to kiss

Your last laugh

The last cry

That sweet twinkle in their eye

The final word

Or the last song you heard

Something that you last touched

Objects that you can feel

Lost in the life that seems so unreal

An aroma of an adored treat

That mouthwatering sensation when you eat

A strong memory that you don't want to forget

Maybe some kind of regret

The person you wish you would have known

Watch your kids and how they've grown

Miss the opportunity for something you never did

A favorite past time as a kid

Would you lie in bed and wait to go?

Your treasured spot and the best show

Would you need someone to hold your hand?

Because if you do I’ll understand

Would you sit around and wonder why?

Wonder why everyone must eventually die?

If you just had one wish

What would it be?

Do you want immortality?

Would you ponder the different ways to die?

And think and ask yourself why?

What determines everyone’s fate?

No one knows until it's far too late

How come some are burned and black?

And why can't we bring them back?

Fighting sickness and disease

Teenagers in the bathroom on their knees

Some people bleed

Others starving and in need

It's only a matter of time

Before you're at the end of the line

Calendars and clocks

Yesterdays, todays, and tomorrow’s

Would you go back if you could?

Did you do everything that you should?

A shinny new tombstone on the cold wet ground

But there is no name to be found

So, I’ll ask you

To sit and think today

Would You...?

This is my first poem, so any kind of suggestions and feedback would be great! Thanks!...oh, and i think i posted a picture with this attached...sry about that...